if you say something than mean it. don't say it then completely do another............i'm am sooooooo currently pissed off right now i don't even know where to begin.
well............................ for starters. it's 7:45 am and i'm stilllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll awake/drunk....again. kill me. i can't cry anymore. it's so much work. i just want to love. love. i love to love. it's me. that is me. yes or no yes or no. just tell me the fucking truth. i don't want to cry. i can handle the damn truth.
nobody has ever broken me down like you have.
foolish.
natalie passed out before me. my best friend. trust. trust. loyalty. that's all i ask. friends forever.
cry. who knew that 23 would be such a journey. God knows me. He knows all my hopes and dreams....................................
i feel like i'm loosing my sister. i don't talk to her harldy anymore. i miss my niece more than anyting in this world...................................................i wonder if anybody can relate??
it's a struggle to keep in touch with her. i just want to hold tatyana and play with her and watch the backyardigans. without the birth of her i would be a totally different person. i see life through a child's eyes. amazing. i can love again. i can love.
if hope could only find me out......................................................
nobody understands.
i wish my mom would ask about me. what i want and desire in life...........but instead alllllllllllllllll she talks about when i speak with her is sonia and tatyana and how i NEED to talk to some sense into sonia and make her realize!!!! what the hell..........i'm no saint. does anybody care at all>???
nobody cared in high school. i hated high school..........................---->the worst years of my life.
it's my nature to love. i guess i get that from my dad....my dad is the most understanding most kind hearted person i've ever know in my life. and for that my dad will always be my hero. everybody makes mistakes.
i want to be a kid again...................... go back to the times where i would build a fort in the woods and bury my barbies in the garden under the tomato plants. :) those times are over. the times when i thought my parents loved each other. the times when we went on family picnics and went to six flags.
i never want to fall out of love........my mom said that her and my dad got a divorce because they 'fell out of love'..........who falls out of love??? ........................my parents. i NEVER want that to happen. never. i'm passionate. nobody will probably ever know that. SMILE!!!
things are changing. I am changing for the better. i love myself. i love God. i always have.........it's just becoming more relevant now.
i'm never letting go of this feeling.
1 comments:
i can relate to tons of what you said here && i just want you to know that i care, i really do
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