we'll sleep when we die

where i'm at in my life i feel like nobody else knows what i'm going through....i try to talk to my sister but she doesn't see where i'm coming from. i think the only person who even slightly understands is natalie. alot of what i'm feeling lately are my newfound emotions towards God and my beliefs. i'm seeing the bigger picture in a lot of things and i'm slowly learing to love and accept myself for who i am but it's still really really hard with all those reminders of things said to me in the past hovering in the back of my head for me to constantly ponder on.....blah blah blah i've said this all before. but for some reason i truly feel me changing and i'm anxious to see what happens. hopefully 2007 will be one of the best years ever for me because there is a lot i'm already looking forward too for the new year. i just need to get through the rest of this month first. i'm just sooooo stressed out over christmas and upcoming bills and such :/......i feel like i wanna rip my hair out and cry for days..........................................

i'm listening to anchor and braille, mostly sleeping......my fav :)....... i have it downsized as i type this......it's relaxing. i can listen to over and over :D